Breast Cancer Survivor

Breast Cancer Survivor
"We cannot direct the wind but we can adjust the sails"

Family photo November 2008

Family photo November 2008

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Bad news

Ok, well maybe not bad yet.

I found 2 more lumps in the same spot as the original one this weekend. I went to my doctor to have them tel me I was a hypochondriac and it was nothing but that wasn't what they said.

I am going in Friday morning for a sonogram and biopsy to see what the hell it is. Unfortunately, I won't have the results back until Tuesday or Wednesday.

I'm driving myself nuts debating it in my head. "How could this happen, I had a double mastectomy to prevent this, why me, etc." I wish I could shut my brain off until they call.

I haven't told my grandparents yet so please don't if you talk to them or any of my great aunts who might see them.

I'll update again on Friday.

Love,
Erica

4 comments:

Jim & Jenn DiMillo said...

Keep thinking positive thoughts as our prayers are with you. Love The DiMillo's

christina said...

We all love you and are praying that the news is good!! Stay strong.

Love you,
Christina

Janice said...

Erica,
Hang in there! Think positive. We are all praying for good news. Love, Janice

Lori G said...

Erica Jean you stay strong and think positive! My thoughts and prayers are with you...
XOXOXOXOXO
Love Always,
Lor

How it all began......

Welcome to my website! This site was created by my wonderful friend Angela to keep everyone I love updated on my “Journey” beating Breast Cancer.

I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer on December 19, 2007 @ 4:30 in the afternoon. It was quite possibly the worst phone call I’ve ever received. The doctors kept telling me that I was “too young”… it’s probably just a cyst or a fibroid (benign tumor). So, I had convinced myself of the same. Imagine my shock and fear when the doctor said “I hate to tell you this, but it IS cancer.”

I didn’t really know how to react. At first I cried a little. Then, I was ok. Then cried some more, then, ok. It wasn’t until I saw the surgeon and learned of the best option for survival, a double mastectomy, that I really broke down. I had a meltdown for a couple of days and then I was fine. I’ve been pretty good with it ever since. I know that I can beat this sneaky disease and I will live a long life with the loves of my life; my husband Jason, and my 2 boys, Will & Nathan.

Jason had a hard time at first. He just kept thinking the worst, that I wouldn’t make it. He’s doing much better now that we’ve seen all the doctors and the prognosis is good.

The kids don’t really understand. Will (who’s almost 4) thinks mommy is having an operation, that’s it. Nathan just turned 1 so he just wants to be held all the time. That will be the hardest thing on me. I love to hold my babies and I won’t be able to pick them up for awhile.

Thankfully, my mom, Kathy, has come to the rescue. She is here as long as we need her. I am truly blessed to have such a wonderful mother and family. My sister is coming from Alaska, pregnant and all, to help out too. My dad is coming back soon and Jason’s parents, Rick & Jan along with his whole extended family are just a phone call away if I need them. Unfortunately, my brother, Steve can’t come although he wants to. I even have my friends from Maine that want to come and help! Thank you Christina and Nikki for offering. My friends here, Angela, Oti, Julie & Niki are all on standby also. They’re ready at a moments notice for whatever we need. I love you all, I can’t say how good it makes me feel to be loved.

Everyone I know is praying for us which is so wonderful. I appreciate all the prayers. Only God knows what will happen but I’m confident that he will pull me through.

Anyway, I hope you log on to find out how we’re doing down here in Texas. My surgery is January 9th @ 7:30 a.m. I’ll be in the hospital for 2 nights.

I hope this site can help anyone else who gets this horrible disease, although I pray that none of you ever have to experience it.

Love to all!
Erica